Tuesday, Jan. 09, 2018 - 5:58 p.m.

I am nothing but avoidance and obsessions lately. Interspersed with bouts of panic.

I have been consciously trying not to mask as much, but I don't know that that's making things any better.

Am supposed to be making Q's cake right now but am laying in the dark. Someone said my mom should come for crab cakes tonight but I don't know if she was formally invited or not. Now they are all at party store buying cheap crap from china to hand out to kids who don't need it, and I should call mom to tell her about dinner delay but I just don't want to talk.

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