Tuesday, Sept. 03, 2019 - 6:57 a.m.

Yesss...back to pre-trip weight. I don’t understand how sometimes I can’t do it no matter what, and other times it’s sheer force of will. And it’s like cutting back on food a little doesn’t work. It has to be kind of extreme. So unhealthy, but seems to be fine in short bursts. And I don’t have the sense that I’m depriving myself of anything, because I genuinely want just my samefood. Idk. Just glad I can do it when I want to, political implications of my desire to do so nonwithstanding. I’ll eat cookies when it’s time to eat cookies again.

�