Sunday, Jan. 12, 2020 - 12:34 p.m.

Q’s birthday today. #10.

Am having a very hard time already. Not with that, with other stuff. Was happy when working on jewelry although it was cold upstairs. But when it became time to go...all to grocery for croissants, then swim, in-laws meeting us, had to call mom, plans about lunch and party and baking a cake and wrapping presents and vacuuming her room for new desk.

Swim class and then in-laws have a seat up front they’ve saved me a seat but it’s not where we usually sit and I say no and

And god I just want to be left alone, unadvised, unworried about. Forget about me. Will everyone just forget about me.

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