Thursday, Oct. 01, 2020 - 3:12 p.m.

Update 2. I unfriended him, I can’t go on watching from that vantage point. My friend says she thinks he must have joined a SD Proud Boys group.

I remember the casual racism of my white cohort in my home town and all I can think is he was never taught what racism really is and now it’s too late.

Anyway.

Obviously today I am doing rather worse again than yesterday. I haven’t worked out much for days and my muscles are frustrated. I just want to lay in bed and do nothing.

Yesterday I had a good idea about making little textile banners instead of entire buntings but today I hate it all again. I don’t know what to do.

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