Monday, Nov. 02, 2020 - 9:11 a.m.

On the shirt I dyed grey, I decided to embroider little flowers like the ones I put on my bracelets last year. I’m going to do one color, then add more in different colors. All around the bottom of it. There will be a color transition involved but I’m not going to plan it out too much. I started with orange.

Existential anxiety is pretty bad today. I know I’m not alone in that. I feel bad for my friends in recovery now...I myself am craving chemical relief and I don’t indulge much. How much worse if you were battling the urge every day. So I won’t be posting about it on FB, but I plan to drink tomorrow, make no mistake.

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