Wednesday, Nov. 01, 2023 - 8:21 p.m.

Feeling really bad now. Had a hard time with an incident with U and Q just now. They’re both so reactive, so vulnerable. And at this point, so big. She has 20 pounds on me, she loses her temper and I can’t hold my ground. Trying to keep the two apart when they’re hitting and shoving and kicking, I’m just a pinball.

It’s fucking depressing.

I was about to sit down and write other things, but that happened first. I don’t know where we’re all going, I don’t know how we’ll survive.

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