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Monday, Apr. 09, 2018 - 7:26 a.m. Each Chekhov story is like a jewel. Or a small bite of something flavorful and rich. I want to plow through the book but I really can’t because the flavor of one story lingers so long, it would ruin it to begin another before the flavor of it fully fades from my mind. I read one yesterday in which I would describe the main character as autistic, as his behaviors and actions are portrayed. It was a description of his “nervous breakdown” after a period of intense perseveration on something. All the details fell together perfectly. The book it’s in is free on Gutenberg, here if you’re interested: http://www.gutenberg.org/files/1732/1732-h/1732-h.htm#link2H_4_0001 Mom came over for dinner last night. It was fine. (This is my key to understanding U: I understand rejecting approval under certain circumstances). Later we had some of the pie she brought. I plated some for e but he didn’t want it, so I ate it, but she didn’t notice. “Are you resisting eating the pie?”, she asks. FUCK YOU AND YOUR FUCKED UP RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD “No. I had some already.”, I was pleased to answer. I didn’t really want any of the pie, but I had some just so she wouldn’t see me denying myself things in a way that would please her worldview. I just shut down around her now, more or less. I can hardly stand to be in the room with her even when she hasn’t done anything objectionable at all. Her constant talking is a demand that wears on me. Her attempts to bond by asking me questions just make me retreat further. I hate it. I have to get up and leave every 15 minutes or so to keep from being hostile. Wasn’t planning to tell her about the tattoo, but I do plan to tell facebook, so I guess she’ll find out. Snitches get stitches. previous next� Leave a note |