Monday, Jan. 21, 2008 - 10:02 a.m.

I was up for a day, now down again. Maybe I should stop listening to Marketplace and their talk of recession; maybe I should identify what it is that makes me feel out of control of things, and fix it. Usually when I begin to feel desperate like this, it's because I'm not doing something I know I should be doing. I'm afraid of my taxes. Afraid of my student loan bills.

I really have it very good. I know I do. But I'm afraid it will stop.

I have to think of another thing to do with recycled paper. I was invited to this show of all recycled stuff, and I'd like to do it, but I can't go to a show and only bring $100 bracelets.

They're playing opera and I MUST turn it off. NOw.

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